Accidentally Miraculous

“I don’t believe we are accidents in the world, and I don’t believe we were supposed to be actors either. I think we are supposed to be ourselves and we were meant as a miracle.”
-Donald Miller, Scary Close

Miracle: a surprising and welcome event that is not explicable by natural or scientific laws and is therefore considered to be the work of a divine agency.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about accidents and miracles…the extraordinary and shocking, as well as the small and seemingly insignificant moments in life. They are all necessary, I think. Each memory plays it’s part in making us who we are. Whether we see moments as an accident and flaw in the plan or a miracle comes down to choice, sometimes. It’s all about perspective. There is a quote by Albert Einstein that I have framed…it has gone with me to every apartment I’ve ever lived in through my adult life.

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”

There have been moments in my life where pain has felt crippling, where the little foxes (Song of Solomon 2:15) creep in and the lies in my head feel violent. Years ago, I was in a toxic relationship with a guy who made me question the truth about myself. I’ll never forget his words:

“So, based on what happened with your biological dad, you’re really just an accident. You weren’t supposed to be here. I mean, you probably weren’t really wanted.”

I lived some of my life believing that I was an accident. Feeling worthless. And making decisions based on this false identity I cloaked myself in. What I was really doing was cheapening the woman God created. Because there really are two ways to look at it. Based on what’s happened in my 24 years of life, I could focus on the flaws, failures, health issues, and hurtful moments. Instead, I now see my life as a miracle. There have been numerous times in my life that I can’t believe I lived through. Even before I was born, doctors told my mother that they didn’t think I was going to make it. My being here is no accident. Yours is not an accident, either. It is significant, purposeful, beautiful, and miraculous.

Learning to be myself and be okay with that woman has been life changing. Surrounding myself with people who love me, the real me, flaws and all, has transformed my life. Also, I have realized that the more I tried to become someone I simply am not, I was more accident prone. I found myself getting hurt and hurting others, because I was not true to the person God designed me to be. I now feel no need to explain and validate my life to you…to anyone. This in itself is a miracle. The friendships I have are a miracle. The fact that I can trust and feel and love so deeply is a miracle. The fact that I am alive today is a miracle.

I don’t know your story. I don’t know what you’ve been through. But I do know that you matter…that you are significant. You are not an accident. Live today like the miracle you are.

I did not choose the life I have been entrusted to. Perhaps that makes it an accident on some level. An accidental miracle.

“When we do the best we can, we never know what miracle is wrought in our life, or in the life of another.”
-Helen Keller

{Photo credit: Emily Magers photography}

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