Just a little over 2 months ago, I married my best friend and embarked on the best adventure ever. This journey has been filled with more love, laughter, and joy than I ever could have imagined. However, like any great adventure story, it has also had it’s fair share of obstacles and difficulties to overcome so far as well. The morning of our wedding, right before my husband and I said “I do”, his sweet mama came to visit me in my little room while I anxiously awaited this big moment. She handed me a beautiful journal, and encouraged me to write in it often throughout our marriage…to keep track of what I was thankful for, and also to share with God what struggles I would experience. I have been consistently writing in this journal since the first day of our honeymoon. Now, almost everyday, I sit at the little office I have in our bedroom, and my heart and soul fill the pages of this journal. What I love about journaling is the ability to take one day at a time, to track the thought and feelings of each moment, and later reflect on them to see how good God truly is. The beginning of our marriage was filled with health issues on my part…which left me feeling hopeless and failing many days. While I didn’t want to always go crying to my new husband, this journal was my way of letting God keep track of my tears and for me to let it all out on paper (as we writers tend to do). In one of my journal entries, I wrote to God:
“I would truly give anything to be healed. For my this body of mine to not always have so many kinks and issues to work out. God, sometimes it hurts to trust you. Sometimes it brings me pain, because I want to hear you audibly respond…I want to see the tears on your face, too…I want to feel your arms hold me during my darkest hours. I don’t know why I can’t just be healed of this, but I wonder how you will shine through my marriage within this…because I know you will. I just have to take this one day at a time.”
The more I began to see my faith walk with God as a step-by-step, one day at a time journey (rather than a marathon to complete perfectly all at once), things slowly felt better. My joy was returning, and it wasn’t because my circumstances were necessarily different, but this journey was bringing me hope. “Jesus Calling” sometimes seems to be this strange way of Jesus responding to my journals. One of the dates of “Jesus Calling” that I read shortly after that journal entry says:
“Trust me one day at a time. This keeps you close to Me, responsive to My will. Trust is not a natural response, especially for those who have been deeply wounded. Exert your will to trust Me in all circumstances. Don’t let your need to understand distract you from My presence. I will equip you to get through this day victoriously as you live in deep dependence on Me. Tomorrow is busy worrying about itself; don’t get tangled up in its worry-webs. Trust Me one day at a time.”
These words went straight into my soul and into the darkest of places in my heart that needed His response. Friends, I don’t know what your struggle looks like…physical, mental, emotional, spiritual. I can’t see the battle you are fighting, but I believe in how difficult it is and how deeply wounded you may be feeling. God sees straight into your situation and He doesn’t expect you to set a 10 year goal of success in the midst of your painful circumstances. He simply wants you to trust Him one day at a time.
Will you start today? Will you open your heart to the possibility of transformation? Will you exert your will to trust Him?
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