What Could Happen If You Knew Him?

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I’ll never forget the cold March evening in 2010. A hard rain tapped on my window, keeping me awake around 1:30 AM. I remember being so frustrated by this distraction from my much needed “beauty rest”, as I had to wake up early for work the following morning.

It had been a while since I had really opened up my bible…really read scripture…and it had definitely been a while since I had any sort of conversation with God. Life became busy, I grew selfish, and a life of my own decisions apart from Him were what I had been up to. But for some reason, when I found myself unable to rest on this particular night, I decided to grab my bible from the bookshelf.

This is not for dramatic blogging effect, or any sort of exaggeration, but I remember dust actually coming up off of the bible when I touched it. Yes-it had been that long. Not really knowing how to start back up that relationship again, not knowing where to begin, I opened up to a random spot. As the pages flipped open and the bible laid flat on the floor, it read:

“Not everyone who calls out to me, ‘Lord! Lord!’ will enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Only those who actually do the will of my Father in heaven will enter. On judgment day many will say to me, ‘Lord! Lord! We prophesied in your name and cast out demons in your name and performed many miracles in your name.’ But I will reply, ‘I never knew you. Get away from me, you who break God’s laws.’
-Matthew 7:21-23

The words “I never knew you” haunted me, and definitely didn’t help me get back to sleep. However, tears were uncontrollably streaming down my cheeks as I realized what was even more troubling to me was that I no longer felt that I knew Him.

How did I allow this to happen?
When did I stop trying to know Him?
Had I stopped following Him?
Did He know me?
Did I know Him?

I wrestled with these questions until I was too exhausted for any more thought. I was sure of one thing, though, and it was that I simply needed to know Him. No matter how much effort it would require, or what the cost may be, I never wanted to feel distant from God…because I had never felt anything so deeply saddening and dark within my soul.

4 years later, I find myself excited and swept away in His word every day. This year, I have made the commitment to read through the entire bible chronologically, and I have never enjoyed my morning bible time so much. I look forward to it…it brings me joy…I feel such a close connection to God and see Him so clearly working in every aspect of my life.

This incredible, life changing connection didn’t happen overnight, friends. Any relationship requires work, time, energy, and prioritizing. But I can promise you that it is the most worthwhile investment anyone could ever make. Just knowing Him sheds light on everything else.

You see, the danger in knowing God but not fully knowing Him, understanding His power, His wonders, and not realizing who He truly is, is that we make him into whatever we want and blame Him for our own poor decision making {Just me? Yes-I’ve done that way too many times}.

“God, why didn’t you bless that relationship?!” {Ummm…because it was unhealthy and you never invited me into it.}
“God, why didn’t you make it clear where I should live?!” {Well, you ignored all of the wise council that was in your way.}
“God, why didn’t you just TELL me that job was going to make me miserable?!” {You never asked me. You never tithed. You never gave. You never knew me.}

We shake our angry fists at God, all the while neglecting Him and not reading His word. Beth Moore so eloquently says:

“I think sometimes that God must listen to our pitifully small acclamations, expectations, and petitions in prayer and want to say,
Are you talking to Me? I’m not recognizing Myself in this conversation. Are you sure you have the right God?

Listen, friends, to put it simply:
To have a relationship with God, we must know God.
To be blessed by God, we must know God.
To have our lives changed by God, we must know God.

Knowing God is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. It is why mornings are my favorite. It is why I wake with wonder each day. It is why sitting with my coffee, chihuahua, and bible are life changing.

What could happen if you knew Him?

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