Out of Control

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I don’t know about you, but I find it easy to say “Sure, God. Everything is yours, I trust you with everything, it all belongs to you, blah blah blah.”
But what happens when we are actually put to the test? Do our words come into action, or do we run and hide at the first sign of struggle?

The fact is, trusting God isn’t always the easy or comfortable thing to do. In life, we are filled with questions, unknowns and obstacles…and we try to hold tight to controlling these uncontrollable situations. Even as God is blessing me, even as He opens a door of opportunity for me, I am quick to push Him aside and take over. I swiftly tell Him, “I can take it from here.”

Recently, God opened up a door for me…He gave me a chance to be blessed. Long story short, I panicked. I stressed. I took the situation into my own hands. I ended up making a mistake and losing money accidentally. This obviously made me go even deeper into my panic. Here’s the worst part: as I lost that money, for a split second, just a flash, my selfish mind thought that maybe I wouldn’t be able to offer more money to church that week due to the money I had lost. How insane is that? That would be me punishing God for my mistake. My money isn’t mine. My life isn’t mine. My body isn’t mine.
God tries to take care of us, but in our desire to control, we cause chaos.

I found myself lying on the floor in my bathroom, crying out to God. I asked Him to forgive me for even thinking about money that way. I was ashamed of how much I tried to control my life instead of trusting Him and honoring Him with all I have. I didn’t want that stress or pressure any longer. I begged Him to take control of my life and to make me just not care and worry like that anymore. (I ended up getting the money back…thanks to God.)
Whether I have tons of money or less money, I don’t want to be controlled by it. Whether a day is amazing or filled with obstacles, I don’t want a day to define me. I want God to have the ultimate control over it all.

It’s easy for us to get caught up in how the world defines us and how the world says we should live. Scripture makes it pretty clear that we should be honoring God with everything and every moment.

In all we do…
“So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.” -1 Corinthians 10:31

In our bodies…
“For you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.” -1 Corinthians 6:20

In our finances…
“Honor the Lord with your wealth and with the first fruits of all your produce.” -Proverbs 3:9

Giving up control can be scary. But what’s scarier is hoarding our lives and leading them into ruin.
When I try to micromanage every detail of my life, I find myself stressed, overwhelmed, chaotic, panicked, and failing miserably. Are we really so sure of ourselves that we feel our ways are better than Gods? That our decisions will lead to a better outcome? Do I truly think that my plans are better than the plans of our God who created the universe? No. Fear leads us to control, but our control leads us to disappointment and failure.
Let go. Allow God to take care of you. Trust that He will care for your every need, just as He has promised. This isn’t a big leap of faith-these are things that our God has promised us. It may feel terrifying to you, but I can tell you from experience that it’s far more exhausting to try to control the world than it is to just let go of the reins.

To sum it all up, I’m out of control, and I’ve never felt better.
We often think of being “out of control” as a crazy, scary, overwhelming negative thing. I see it now as the biggest relief…a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. Because now I see being “out” as having no more left. I no longer have any control in my hands. I’m all out of worry. I’m all out of stress. I’m all out of being a perfectionist. I’m all out of living up to someone else’s expectations. I’m all out of living up to my unrealistic expectations.
I’m all out of control.

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2 thoughts on “Out of Control

  1. Thank you Rachael
    Your message and insight is so timely for me. I am being tested and am not doing so well. Please pray that I allow God to be in control and that I fully trust Him to get me through this and that I become stronger in the Lord. Thank you and may God continue to bless you richly.

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